It's been pretty quiet around here this month. As promised, I've been taking a lot of time to just relax and do whatever it is I want to do. Reading, yoga, tending to my garden and sleeping in until late morning. This time of rest has been so rejuvenating. Somehow I've found myself still slipping through the cracks of my plan "A" though. Despite my goal to just relax this month, I've managed to book 4 photo sessions and host my first Charlotte project life meet up!
Instead of feeling defeated for not staying strong in my goal to not have any expectations or work this month, I'm letting go. I'm letting go of plan "a." I'm letting go of the need for everything to be just so, just the way I wanted it to be, just the way I planned it to be, when I planned it. And that in and of itself has been a revolutionary thought.
What if I were to "just let go" of all of my Plan A's? What if I learned to appreciate every single moment, despite whatever I may or may not be accomplishing? What if I learned to be happy with the way life is right now, without worrying about how much better I can make tomorrow if I work insanely hard today?
If I let go of the want/need to have a family or a baby one day. If I let go of all of the expectations I put on myself in wanting/needing to be successful right now. And instead, I just lived and breathed every moment as it came?
How freeing would that be?
It's such a lovely thought. Life doesn't begin when I'm a successful business owner. Life doesn't begin after I'm done with school. Life doesn't begin when I finally have a baby. Life doesn't begin when I meet a goal or feel accomplished. Life is now. It's happening every moment of every day. And while I'll always be a person who works hard for what they want in life; I'm now going to try being a person who says "okay" to taking a break. It's okay to step away from the work and the to-do lists and the stress and just enjoy the right now.